iM showing atitude again...hat it lars...but cant help it...i miss my old life..i want my frens bxk...i hate holidaes..freaking boring...chatting thru toilet bowl xpress again..3rd tme already...im going to skull tmr...cant help it...deres band lke duh...wadeva lars...im nnot going to see her...maybe i am...insecurities..narmy said she was late 4 band todae...she always is..cant change...wadeva...im seriously crapped up...dancing to crazy baby so often dat i rmbr so many things dat im not supposed to...shld not have lke shitt!wad am i doing?? hell up man...im missing things dat i dont even noe exsist!!! smthings happening butt i dun noe wad am im tired of it....its been 2 wks..i ain't goanna make it 3....freak-ed up...