_OncE euR preseNce hAs sEepeD iNn_+[PrinCess Hu oWnS a HeavEn]+

2007-07-16T20:01:00.000-07:00

loads of things have happened in thesee past months where i have gone absolutely missing from my blog!!!070707 holds loads of memories ...i love you girlfriend...HOT AMBIENCE

2007-01-14T19:14:00.000-08:00

FUCK EUU LAR!!! JUST WHEN I WAS STARTING TO FORGET EUU CAME BACK...WHY DID EUU TELL ME U LOVE ME..DENY AND SAY IT WAS EUR SIS...ASH...EUU FUCKING FUCKED ME UPP...

I LOVE YOU TOOS
I LOVE YOU TOOS
I LOVE YOU TOOS

2006-11-27T23:11:00.000-08:00

i want euu to be there wen i fall i want euu to be there wen i cry i want euu to be by my side...ITS TOO MUCH TO TAKE...MAYBE DEATH IS A BETTER OPTION OUTT...DID EUU EVER LOVE ME??
I WAS JUST TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF RITE?TELL ME THE BLOODY FARKKING TRUTH...NOTHING CAN HURT MORE THAN IT ALREADY DOES!!!! TELL ME TELL ME TELL ME!!! NOW!!!

EMOTIONAL WOES TAKE CONTROL NOW PAIN HEALS MY SOUL..yeah,as if.

2006-11-27T22:33:00.000-08:00

huhu huhu!! i was blowing away at sam's house.that gal is uber crazy.she didnt want to let me in.locked the front door,said she looked horrible with her drippy nose.like i cared.but she didnt let me in so wad was i supposed to do.called her and she told me to wait for a while ...half an hour to be precise.didnt matter.waited and then went up...YUP!!! she looked a mess...it was plain OBIVIOUS ,dont try to hide it gal!...she had been crying the whole nite away...all because of that small monk8y...who else,ash of cause...

The reason for this post is mainly and plainly for ash!!!
so listen up
sam is a gd gal,u spoilt her.it is solely cause of u dat shes in dis mess.
wad do u mean by she's not eur type.it is eur own bloody misfortune and stupidity to not recognise a true angel in front of u.guys will be dying to go out with her.and all she cares about is u dammit! ive seen the pain in her eyes countless of times,she's gone thru downright hell!!! did u even care?
u had a galfren when u asked her for stead.where did eur brain go at that time.it dosent matter if she sheds tears,all that matters is that euu are alright issit? SELFISH ASSHOLE!! i dont mean to scold u but anyone would seeing her pain.its not as if she asked for it or smth.do some soul searching ash.I MEAN SERIOUSLY!!

SAM!!! i will misss euu..i'll try to postpone it to wednesday okay but no promises.im sorry gal.1 and a half months is kinda too long but ill try to call and come back once in a while yah.i will miss all those chocolate factory stuff...too sweet lah the black one.next time ill try the rasin-filled one kz? ill send chocs over kz...im busy ..ill call euu today nite or tmr morning.and dont forget to collect the parcel from plaza sing..must collect by 6...u go on the 29 okae..bye

2006-10-29T23:10:00.000-08:00

SOMEONE FUCKKED UPP MY FRIENDSTER PROFILE!!! FUCK DAT ASSHOLE!!!

that was sam..this is ram...yo ppl..i love my sammy baby...she is so pretty...stupid ash...push her into the bush..i am so going to kill that small fry...how dare she bully my galfren!!! anyways...i love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love sam!! she is soo sooos ssoo ssoos soss sossos ososso PREETY...love her lke xiao!!! kz...sam wants to blog now...bye ppl and RAM AND SAM FOREVER

sorry ash...i cant help it..ram hates euu lar...but i love euu...so no worries ya baby!!..
this is just for euu ash,

The clock ticks so slowly by,
The pain,joy and hurt wont lie
It will only tell tales
Of the times i spent with euu
it seems lke centuries
Which we spend together
Im more numb
when euu said ill love euu forever
Where'd euu go
wen i fell rock-low
Where were euu wen i needed euu the most
Dont lie.just dont lie
i wont cry.i just cried
Euu walk by with a smile on eur face
It grows quieter when it passes by in days
The silence brings about a false sense of love
Do i fall down prey or seek silence from above
Euu broke me to bits
When euu spoke those words straight from eur lips

AsH,even though i have ram now,euu will alwaes remain as the person i truly love

2006-10-18T03:21:00.001-07:00

angell of my nite mare
unspoken words and unwritten love spells D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R
the truth will be accepted one day

ASH

2006-10-18T03:21:00.000-07:00

angell of my nite mare
unspoken words and unwritten love spells D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R
the truth will be accepted one day

ASH

2006-10-16T01:48:00.000-07:00

wad did i do wrong...oh i dono....
in rams hse now...having so much of fun...but there's always HER...in the back of my mind....
"GOD SAVE ME FROM THIS MADDNESS!!!"
rams screaming at me for not being able to let go of my feelings...
"u cant hurt urself becoz of sumone hu dosent dam-care bout u"
lalala...thoses were his words, i wasnt heeding them.mumbling buttons under my breath...
thought of all the love and hurt..
oh well wad happens has to happen...
cant change it
ram has just successfully lifted my skirt...too bad im wearing fbt's inside...he wont go too far...
oh yes,he wants a pic of me....NUDE...yeah lke real lar..i aint goana pose for him..bloody heller...
maybe SEMI NUDE will be fine...haha
my computer's crashed down on me again...don wana repair...lazy lars...
i thought about everything u were to me
ive said it again and again
seeing u with her hurts me
but that wont stop me
u r the one in my heart
u will live there forever
ASH,I LOVE YOU

2006-10-16T01:36:00.000-07:00

heyys...all you ppl out dere listen up,
Ram here!!!
sam is my gal...stay outt...coz she belongs to me and only me...
hais...if only she will understand my feelings...she only has time for ash...
all she toks about is ash...all she thinks about is ash..ash ash ash...im sick and tired of her...
+sam is laughing in the background+
anyways,my gal is great fun....i am so horny....haha...there she goes,rambling bout ash again...i wana lift up her skirt....it is so uber short lars...she is so pretty in her short denim and sleeveless top...with her cute big hoopy earrings...ahhhhahahhh...i so love her
any ways ...gotta go....need to spend more time with her...oh,she wants to sae that she loves ash..

I LOVE SAM!!!

2006-10-11T03:18:00.000-07:00

wad did i do wrong..
all i did was to love euu.
was dat wrong?
walk away if euu dont care
dont stay and torture me like eur bloody damed
i dont love another and euu noe dat
we cant be together and it hurts bad.
wad do u noe bout love
all euu did was to lead me on.
just leave.
get lost from my life i dont need euu
im just afraid dat euull get hurt
all i think about is euu..i have no courage to say its true..
i dont want someone else
wad do i need to do?
to make u love me
im breaking down because of euu..u think im happy...its not true..
I DOWAN U ANYMORE...JUST LEAVE..MY HEARTS BREAKING

2006-09-20T00:46:00.000-07:00

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an off-hand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in eur hometown
Waiting for sumone lke u to show me the way
The way of truth
The way of life
The way of love which euu cant deny
Everyday is getting shorter,neva seem to find the time
Plans that either come in naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the english way
The times gone but lifes neva over
Thought id have something more to say

i havent seen euu for wad seems lke a century..
i chose to be alone...its not euu..im sorry if eur angry but
i want to be alone for a while...exams are coming anyway...gotta study...
euu also must do well...dont worry,,,i aint hating euu....euu dont noe how much i miss euu lars..
i love you:)

2006-09-12T23:58:00.000-07:00

I love you:) I love you:) I love you :)
i miss euu...havingg exam ryte? saw you n u were so cute doing yur exam.
wish u all e best darling.no stocking lah!haha
my days r passing slowly jus cos u r not here wif mie nowdaes.but u nv lef my memories.
my holidays sucked low!!
euu are my voodoo child...love euu loads miss u much...just seeiing euu makes my dae complete...
DAR-DAR

2006-09-11T01:56:00.000-07:00

IM a TanGledd Webb Of deFeatEdd eMotIonS...
Im nOT cRyinGg oVer eUU aNymoRe...
ITs wAs euR birthDae ...I waSnT wiTh euU..
But eUu neVa lEft mY mEmory Even oNcE...
TodAE.iTS ouR 6Th mOnth
If we HAdnT broKen....
11th April Holds A sPeciAl plAce iN My HEartt..
So dO euu
EverY 11,i SpENdd ALone>>>
<<>>
^^^ill neva love another person da same way i love euu^^^
###Euu Are da onlY onE###
I love you:)I love you:)I love you:)
3 kisses just for euu my baby...
millions of stars will be sentt in eur dreams...euu are da perfect one for me..too badd its over...my loves still da same...

2006-09-07T21:02:00.000-07:00

WiSh UpoN a WishIng sTar
LovE upOn a bRokEn hEartt
Miss Upon A uN giVen sOul
Just bE hU euu Are
sTay TRue

i wonder ...im happy just seeing euu...
i hope ...dat euu will be there
i want ...to holdd euu close to my heartt
thats just where euu will be till i die down..
dont hate her,she's just longing for love too
andd...RAJ IS NOT MY BOYFREN
i just love toking to euu...euu made me smile after many days of tears..
but..euu are da smallest-biggest skinniest darn fatt liar i have eva come across...
but i still love euu..

2006-08-25T21:35:00.000-07:00

ive neva saidd dat i dont love euu anymore
ive neva saidd dat ill hate euu
whyy do u thinkk in dat way andd make me need euu?
euu noe i love everything euu do
euu noe i miss euu more wen im with euu
den why do euu torture me wen all i want to do is love euu?
euu dont noe how longg ive waited..
euu dont noe how much ive criedd
euu dont noe anything dat happens behindd these dry eyes..
i want to forget euu
but euu noe i cant
whyy is life so miserable wen we are done?
euu hurt me time andd time again
but everytime euu do,i rmbr eur love
andd i wonder..
was eur love for me even true..
tears streaming down again
feelings i just cant control..
baby i need euu back again
whyy cant euu be true..
i really want to be with euu...
euu are already a part of me..
whyy do u want me to give euu up?
its not easy to forget...u shld noe it too
we may not be together but da love will always be euu...

2006-08-25T19:40:00.000-07:00

its been a little longg while...gave her de letter on wednesdae...no reply...i didnt ask for one though..dun no wat she thinkks...im miserable...im still faking everthng i do...i cant help it.i dun wannt her to think im losin it...which i dont think i am..YET...stars beyondd love...raj is da new guy...kinda hot...smth to think abt...he lkes me...imm still thining whther i shld continue to extendd da relationship..i seriously dont noe lars...i love ash...still..im sorry 4 avoiding euu da pst few days...i didnt noe wad else to do!!

Even when da stars refuse to shine,
eur smile will lite up evan da darkest nites...

undenyed lurbbs

2006-08-17T20:06:00.000-07:00

in art class now....mrs khoo's toking..
i miss her so much yet i havent seen her all day...
i criedd again last nite thinking about all da pain andd love andd tears andd hearts...i fell into a fitfull sleep draemed about opening doors andd a very bright lite...
woke up with a heavy heart andd a painful head...
did'nt want to come to skull but in de endd,i dragged myself outta bedd andd came...
grudingly,its true..
but my hearts still heavy,my tears are still flowingand the pains still there..
but i guess im a bit happy now..
i guess..
i dont noe...
i readd her blogg yesterdae andd its true...afterall...
but i can sence her painn...
its da same im still feeling...

with atorn heart andd a shattered dream,
,i come backk to euu...but dadesicion still lies on euu...whether euu will come backk or not....maybe euu will,maybe euu wont but...ill be waiting...
i have an mc till next ffridae,but i guess ill come to skull...i cant live withoutt seeing her for a wk..its happened beforre but i wont let
it happen again...its just too painfull...
-AsH-
Be my one andd only andd i shall be eur prncss 4 eternityy..ill neva let euu hurt agin...im sorry if i hadd hurt euu.i wontlet it happen agin...baby,

I LOVE YOU(:

2006-08-17T03:17:00.000-07:00

i was so happy yesterdae...i noe butt can't tell coz dat person dosent noe yet...i dunwanna spoil it...i miss my baby...i am supposed to forget her but i cant...i want her backk...its been very long since i last blogged...guess too many dried tears andd too many broken hearts..i love her so....i miss her much...euu will neva noe how much i love euu...come backk andd i swear dat ill neva let euu go again...i want to forget euu but its eur face dat echoes in my mindd dae andd nite...i want euu back...even if it takes months or centuries...ill waiitt coz baby wen euu left me in da darkness,it hurtt so badd...euu lost us both at da same time...i noe how much euu love her...i noe da pain ...its da same...i want eur loving again....

i love you(: i love you(: i love you(:

wadeva lynn told euu is da truth....i love euu too much to care bout anything else...i do not love griselda okayy...no one can even turn anddd look at her wen eur aroundd....

be my one and only babay and i swear ill be eur princess...4 life...i swear ill neva hurtt euu...i swear dat ill love euu till de endd...luckks 4 dat tamil debate thing...euull rawks...im sure of it...baby,i love you!!!

2006-08-04T18:56:00.000-07:00

Tears streamed down dis broken face,
Words exploding,can't explain,
da way dat euu made me in love with euu...
im sorry dat we can't be togethre,but baby,
eur memories will always be in my heart.
euu noe wad euu did was wrong,
i triedd to make it right,
but it go worse..andd now its gone..
da feelings i have for euu will always be there,
im not goanna let go...even if it destroys me...
what was not meant to be has been..
our love was not meant to be..our quits was not meant to be
but we were meant to be..
we could'nt save it..
we couldnt make it..
now...im breakking...
slowly...deep inside..
maybe one day euu'll realise how much euu truly mean to me
maybe den...dat day day will be too latee...
PARDON US FOR OUR IRREVERSABLE MISTAKE...

2006-08-04T18:40:00.000-07:00

i broke da love charmm on wednesdae...it hurt darm badd...i started to cry...she thought dat i broke with her coz i love her no more...i do...i still do...but i had to break coz of 'de other gal'...i dun want her to findd out bout us andd den things would get ugly...besides she is nice to me...it hurts...everywhere i turn memories of her come back..memeries of dat smile,of dat face...i miss her so much...her love penetrated thru me...deep...cant take it out...i tried to burn all her stuff but couldnt...i spent da rest of da day crying...my eyes are all puffy andd reddd...i look horrendous....i truly want her back....sincerely...i love her...i cant standd it..da pain's killing me...i cant even bear to look at my mum...my mum thinks im going to go under depression again...i dont noe..maybe i am...im making her worried...but i hack care...i only want dat gal backk in my life...dat desicion to let go was made only da nite before...not months ago...how can i not miss her ...her name is carved on my skinn...her love runss thru me...i wanns let go..andd not think bout her..but i cant...im so full of her...its lke riping a part of me out...i wanna go backk into her arms...please..im a pathetic tearful mess!!!da bandd she tied on me is still on my leg...

I STILL LOVE EUU...COME BACK!!!

2006-07-27T20:01:00.000-07:00

The worldd goes roundd rite? i havent seen her in a while...i dreamt bout her...woke up crying...

im straight
im straight
im straight
im straight
im straight

i triedd telling myself dis lke a million times but as u can see...its just not working!!!
nuthins rite!!! im a bung's stead 4 heavens sake!!! its a relationship!!! smthings seriously wrong~.~

a lot of dem have told me da same thing...she is NOT in love with me anymore...i mean lke dats okkayy lars...evryone falls outta love...human methalogy...but da question is dat whyy is she still keeping me as her stead??
she can breakk rite?if she breaks i'll be upset 4 a while...but ill learn to go on...at least i can find sumone else..but she's not breaking..i certainly dun wanna break...i still love her...delvina's in my mindd...things r not going rite..im missing her lke crazy...i dun understandd myself...life's just a torture now!!

SAVE ME

2006-07-27T03:13:00.000-07:00

i seriously dun noe if wad i'm doing is rite...delvina....i kinda lke her...i've been thinking bout her 4 sumtime...i even rmbr her number...but da problem is dat i dun noe if she's attached or not....would it make any difference??? i love my galfren to da fullest...wholeheartedly...but she andd me r lke distant...more now den eva....i've been delibrately ignoring andd avoiding her....i duno y...but everytime i walk past a place dat holds her memories,,,i miss her....wad's happening to me???dead confused...saw nisha earlier...yeapp!!! in compass...going crazy...i miss her lars...im afraidd to open my file in fear dat once i see her face,i'll cry...i dumped my file in da locker...i miss it lke crazy...i treasure her a lot....

baby,if u evA READ dis...
euu r always priceless to me,whether u r two-timing me or not.
i'd always love u....ill treasure u till my soul ebbs away...
ill happily leave dis worldd after seeing eur smile...it
works wonders darling

i love u

2006-07-25T01:40:00.001-07:00

Unfaithful by rhianna...listenn to it...its da words...its da feelings i feel...unsaidd words...raptured lies....its euu hu is unfaithful...i dun noe da reason whyy i love u so much...i dun wann abe stuckk in dis stupidd love triangle...sum1 free me.....i dun wanna breakk...coz i love u...da feelings too deep...eur words echo in my ears..i miss u...euu look so innocent but u r not...bigg adorable eyes...mesmorized by eur charm...insane obsession....iits so deep dat its indecent...i love u more den anyone in da world...i love u more den she does...i do...

i love u
i love u
i love u love me back
miss me more
i love u
i love u
dun breakk my heart,...im out at syahira's hse...irritating her by playinng unfaithful countless times but

I LOVE U SUGAR...BE MY SWEETS 4 LIFE...

i love u

2006-07-25T01:40:00.000-07:00

2006-07-24T23:59:00.000-07:00
maybe its my fault dat i loved euu...dat im not sure...im nomaybe its my fault dat im hurt...i miss u so...dun u understandd...u mean da worldd to me...wen i sae dat i love u..its means dat i really love u...u spendd all eur farkking time with her...y make me hu i am to u wen u goanna hurt me anyway...hurttingg eurself in da process...im not sure of anything anymore...im hanging by a threadd...whyy dun u farkking understandd...i stare into eur eyes andd rmbr all da times we spent together...i hear eur voice andd rmbr eur laughter andd smiles...u r adorable...baby dun do dis to me...i miss u .... i love u... i feel disgusted i write sins not poems... shitt.......u mess me upp even more....do u even care??? u made me smell lke chickenn on friday... our heartts met...fate made us meet...DESTINY
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-07-19T01:29:00.001-07:00
time passes...like darn fast...da words...letters etches on my mind...wad did i do to deserve dis...crapp onlie....im laughing lke crazy in da com lab with lynn andd sha...crazy maddnes..i miss my bedd...my darl is downstairs...bandd room....i was drinking green tea andd she was drinking milo...so weirdd....her photos all ova da place...haha....lurbb her lke crazy...miss her lke m addness...going down to see her...chao!!
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-07-19T01:29:00.000-07:00
time passes...like darn fast...da words...letters etches on my mind...wad did i do to deserve dis...crapp onlie....im laughing lke crazy in da com lab with lynn andd sha...crazy maddnes..i miss my bedd...my darl is downstairs...bandd room....i was drinking green tea andd she was drinking milo...so weirdd....her photos all ova da place...haha....lurbb her lke crazy...miss her lke m addness...going down to see her...chao!!
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-07-09T18:57:00.000-07:00
Gone to another world..andd came back again...weird huh?watched pirates of the carribbean yesterdae...johnny depp is so freaking handsome...gosh..i lurbb captan jack sparrow...i putt my number on msn...i'll just have to wait to see if da person i want to call will call me...i miss dat person...ash is on tv...i guess....i saw da advertistment...im in maths class now...mr tan is just so adorable...hais...i saw her walk past just now...dat was already a miiracle in its wake...shawna also..griseldas with piya...we kinda guessed already..kinda obvious..im blogging outt now...i just wann sae dat im still waiting andd im still loving..
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

FeeLingS

2006-06-23T20:54:00.000-07:00
a feeling of regret and miss-enedd 4
sasi,daphy,uni,ika,chloe,kris
a feeling of guilt4
jason
a feeling of dread 4
shawna
a feeling of likens 4
griselda
a feeling of love 4
easwary
a feeling of i-canot-figure-out-what 4
puni,narmy,sange
a feeling of pity 4
gayethri
a feeling of miss-ened 4
gaayathri
a feeling of hatred 4
kaayathri

its simply too much to be feeling at one time...i noe...
suddenly life seems so wierd...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-20T01:23:00.000-07:00
I LOST DA KEY TO MY HEART...DA ONE JASON GAVE ME...IM SO SADD...I WANT IT BACK...IT MEANT MORE THAN ANYTHING IN DA WORLD...i want it back..im so sorry
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-19T20:00:00.000-07:00
hais....nuthing lars...havent print those photos yet...goanna...got ter go fer tution l8ter...ms gaya...being presentful ain't enuff darling...i miss those moments with ya...i yearn fer ya presence...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-16T23:50:00.000-07:00
im going to my grannys hse later...toking to my galfren yesterdae...bundle of layghter...i was feeling so miserable andd she made me smile...i was rolling around on da floor caus of her...so freaking funny..she andd her slapps!!
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-15T18:59:00.000-07:00
[you're the one that sees the bus numbers for me,you're the one who watches chick flicks with me,you're the one who satisfies my food cravings,you're the one who helps me with my assignments,you're the one always willing to help me if i asked,you're the one who thinks of what i need and buys it for me for my b'day,you're the one that puts up with my moods,you're the one that isn't afraid to tell me when i'm wrong,you're the one who makes me so hurt i want to cry,but with that potential to hurt me you possess the potential to make me happy,you're the one that makes me happy,you're the one that makes me smile,you're the one that makes my heart melt,you're the one that turns me on ;),you're the one i want to spend every second with, even if you spend all of them sleeping :),you're the one i think of when i get up,you're the one i dream of at night,you're the one i want,you're the one i need,you're the one i love,you're The One.*and i'm sure of it*]

butt am i sure?i dun noe...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-15T18:04:00.000-07:00
1. I love you not because of who you are, butbecause of who I am when I am with you.
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Don't waste your time on a man/woman, whoisn'twilling to waste their time on you.
#19981;#35201;#33457;#26178;#38291;#22312;#19968;#20491;#19981;#26371;#33457;#26178;#38291
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong peoplebefore meeting the right one, so that when wefinally meet the person, we will know how to begrateful.
#21487;#33021;#31070;#35201;#25105;#20497;#22312;#36935
There's always going to be people that hurtyou so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
#36889;#20491;#20123;#20663;#20154;#12290;12.
Make yourself a better person and know whou rbefore you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
#22312;#20320;#22039;#35430;#;#30460;#;#65292;#20808;#
DonT try so hard, the best things come whenyou least expect them to.
;REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FORA REASON.#

there is dis fucking bitch hu keeps interrupting in my life...hu da fuck does she tink she is...some big-shot!!!dun dream u r just a fucking kay-po!! get da fuck lost frm muahh life ...asshole...shit-ass lar euu!!!
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-15T17:23:00.000-07:00
*yAwn* i was watching football till 2 a.m...final score,2-nil,to ENGLAND...im not a england fann...but i dun noe whyy i screamed my head off 4 england...beckham andd his million dollar smile....so handsome man!!! im a brazil fann...HARDCORE!!!....dey rawks!!!...starting wib miss gaya again...she majorlie rawks...i cant concentrate on my own...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-13T18:15:00.000-07:00

faith is all i have now...nuthing else...i have a freaking tummy ache...im going to skull later..lols...para/dance revoulution again...earring gal rawks!! i lurbb dis photo...
[sepia-toned]
rawks man...100% reason to remember da name...my profile rawks...my mum says dat i have a lot of wasted enrgy..meaning dat all da anger and saddness andd feelings lke dat stays inside of me...andd i do a lot of screaming,time andd time again....so i feel very down all da time....i dun wanna go into depression again....im on da verge of it again...it happened before i dun wanna it to happen again...its just not fair,im humann too...i wanna be fair-ed!!!!
FUCK ALL DA ASSHOLES LARS...I LIVE MY LIFE...
see im at it again...i hate it...dun want..dun want...dun want...

FUCK//FUCK//FUCK///FUCK///FUCK///FUCK//FUCK///FUCK///
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-13T00:16:00.000-07:00

*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-12T23:59:00.000-07:00
iM showing atitude again...hat it lars...but cant help it...i miss my old life..i want my frens bxk...i hate holidaes..freaking boring...chatting thru toilet bowl xpress again..3rd tme already...im going to skull tmr...cant help it...deres band lke duh...wadeva lars...im nnot going to see her...maybe i am...insecurities..narmy said she was late 4 band todae...she always is..cant change...wadeva...im seriously crapped up...dancing to crazy baby so often dat i rmbr so many things dat im not supposed to...shld not have lke shitt!wad am i doing?? hell up man...im missing things dat i dont even noe exsist!!! smthings happening butt i dun noe wad am im tired of it....its been 2 wks..i ain't goanna make it 3....freak-ed up...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-12T18:22:00.000-07:00
BLACK TEMPTATION is all dat euu r about...HEROIN..is wad i feel bout euu...i saw sasi yesterdae....so happs...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-12T18:13:00.000-07:00
went out wif lynn,tina andd sha..adorabe....walked andd walked...so tired...posh-ed...wadeva lars..tired sae...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-06-11T17:36:00.000-07:00
[gayethri]
i neva really hated euu..i neva did! i dunt tink dat ill eva too...its just dat we started wrongly..majorlly...our opinions of each other were just kinda very wrong....I noe u hate me coz i liked eur galfren[hu is now my galfren....]....well,since its already wrong...leave it dat way...andd leave me alone...im not a hyprocrate lke euu....NO FRENSHIP!!!!
[n.r]
initilisim always works..yet,feelings change....i dun wana hurt us in da process....du harbour any feelings for me...please...i belong to sum1 else now....im not deserving..sorry...

im beginning to tink dat my life's all wrong..i need sasi so desperately now..but she's not with me...if i hadn't fought with vicky,wad would have happened?If i had done betta andd gone to cedar wif sasi,wad would have happened?if i had'nt met ash,wad would have happened?
tears are leaking again...water in on da computer now...wad if it explodes?den ill die...ill probably be freed of my misery...hu da hell messed up my mind in da first place?i was so happs till yesterdae,loving andd missing my galfren was all dat was on my mind,rmbring all da times we spent together,laughing at all da stupid things we did,being loved at all da points of hugs,being missed by her and missing her wen we went home...all those thoughts occupied my mind den...now....hais...i love my galfren...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

luxuriies....

2006-05-31T22:47:00.000-07:00
Champange kisses hold me in eur lap of luxury.i only want to fly first class desires,eur my limosine.So elegant da way we ride,our passion,it just multiples.There's platnum lightning in da skye.Sugar,honey,sexy baby.wen we touch it turns to gold.Sensitive and delicate,kinda lke a tube of rose....oh!!! i just lurbb da lyrics...u noe smth...eur lke heroin...im addicted to euu after just one dose...i feel lke crapp if i dont see euu...euu torture me...i simply can't waitt 4 sunday...where in da world r u??? band i supose...have fun den...im crapped up....missin euu lke anything...aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................................................... [ little angel]
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-05-31T18:08:00.000-07:00
hhmmm...*yawn*..im dead tired...could'nt sleep da whole nite...kept thinking bout sundae...*FratErnisinG*Both galfriends r missing her...rubbish only...she makes ppl yearn 4 her...intentionally or not...its badd!!!...well...she misses her galfriends too...dats wad she says...msn-ed her in da morning yesterdae...so cool....im still thinking if i should go...*WonDerOUs*....i think i should...maybe with N.R. ....den maybe ill go see sasi andd ice-kimo a bit...she wants to go...read dis:
Chocolate said to a lollipop,you are damn sweet And the lollipop said : Not as sweet as the person reading this! Your smile makes me flat your talks make me glad..Your company makes me mad... But your absence makes me sad...be with me my dear...shes not here yet..well ill just waitt...lke usual...makes it easier..or worse..whicheva...its still sweet...i miss my bedd...my pillow...my bolster...my blankiie...andd most of all my rose...well not xactly...da rose is rite in front of me...its so close andd yet i miss it...wad bout ash who is in hougang...miles away....sweetences...she manjars me den tortures me...hais...both is sweet though...i may be turning emo soon...den ill be kris's sista...im already her sista!!! wads wrong with me???? hallucinating!!!*not good*im yearning to her sasi's voice andd see her...sundae seems too far...lovers nite//dae OUT!!!
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

how long?

2006-05-30T18:51:00.000-07:00
how long has it been?too long i suppose...ill start frm saturdae...sjc's family day...i met tina first...went into sch andd guess hu i saw? ASH!!! dats not majorlly happenin but wateva[i didnt care]...i was just thrilled to see her...yups..smiles andd more smiles..da other dae wen i saw her message on msn,it felt as if da sun had just risen or smth...*chow happs*..craziness..she went into da room with her mom n teac...left her alone ^privacy^...not really...kept walking around her though...haha...she looked so INNOCENT...just coundnt get my eyes off her...
^my little angel^
anyways...intro-ed tina to some ppl and some bitches at dat...filty hypocrate oso..
walked around da sch a bit more...andd after wad seemed lke hours on endd...her mom andd her finally emerged frm da classroom...dey sat for a while..andd dey walked andd walked andd walked...walked right ouuta da sch...my heart sank..[rock bottom]
i told tina to go home[it felt pointless in staying]...butt,smth just told me to stat on a little while...dat feeiling wasnt wrong...ash came again... [thrilled but not estatic]decided not to leave..shuanna came outta nowhere again...so handsome..even tina said so...we went bck to da dunking machine...after a bout an hour...a figure emerged ouut nowhere...i mean i didnt see her coming in...went towards her andd comfirmed..nisha...iwas hoping she would come and she did...gave her a wet hug..[dripping wet]...ash was flirting with ^ahem^ so i guessed she didnt want to see dat i mean hu would...so i brought her da other side...toked andd toked...laughed andd laughed..wett-ed andd wett-ed..haha...in da end...nuthing...sunday...nuthin much...just wasted da dae away...monday got blurred into tuesdae..i didnt noe wad was happenin...didnt really care..wednesdae...well da dae just started rite..im no future teller u noe...ill get bck lke od noes wen...maybe going bck to sch later...see how first...my darling baby called smsed me yesterdae...daphy lols...miss her man...she rawks..
^GodSisTAs 4 ETernItyY aNdd BeyOnnDD^
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

kinda

2006-05-14T17:56:00.000-07:00
Its been kinda long...kinda sadd...kinda flimsy...kinda due...kinda late...kinda early..kinda lurbbed...kinda unlurbbed...kinda sleepy..kinda awake...kinda up and kinda lurbb...those last three words dat ika showed me on da lst dae of skool etches on in my very tired mind...those words do mean a lot...to everyone who listens...to those hu dont,i pity euu...my heart bleeds for euu...its been very long seen a last saw euu...how sadd...da last time i saw sasi was on my b-dae and dat was lke ages ago...wth...da last time i saw daphy,uni,ika,chloe was in icekimo...also ages a go...every moment my mind is on dem...those were da ppl i spent my 4 years of life with...dey rawk...i miss em so..and dey miss me so...i wanna be together with dem...dey are so near yet so far...wadeva it is...eur memories etches on im my mind...till da end of eternity...dat keeps me alive..even those marks of painn dosent hurtt anymore wen i rmbr eur faces...i didnt even flinch wen dat horrid thing stung me...euu noe y...cauze at dat point of time,my mind was full of picture of euu daphne..uni..ika...chloe...kris...sasi...tina...sha...ash.. my tribute to euu ppl is EVEALASTING....im banned...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

Everlast

2006-05-11T06:09:00.000-07:00
exams are OVER...lke finaally....its so frustrating to SLOG evertime...study!study!study! must have time for everyone and anyone...hehe...crap lars...anywayys...todae is 1 month...i got da date wrong...so paiseh!!! oops!!! she remembered...yet she act lke she dosent...neva mind...as long as i noe she rmbrs...and as long as she rmbrs..im fine...i still noe dat its true...after all...the LURBBS 4 miie is true and the LURBBS for her is true...shuanna is just sumone i adore...not lurbb...eeee...i and shuanna so dont match....so gross...ashen gods da one i will always lurbb....she mine...and im hers...if euu read dis muahh babs....i want euu to noe dat its euu i always did lurbb...euu are da one in muahh heart...always...i neva wanna part with euu..its lke parting with a part of muahh life...dat will so SARKK!!! i lurbb euu and i noe dat euu do to...[its just dat euu dont show it that much] uncontrolable...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

2006-05-08T00:15:00.000-07:00
Tomorrow..its one month.I hope she remembers.duno wad to do.probably ill do da NESSASARY on wednesdae,kaus 1a gals r not comin tmr.. ..everyones asking miie to be jealous...but to sae da truth,i canot be bothered...kaus at d end of da dae...shes her stead too..im not selfish euu noe...well,she sees miie every dae...she dosent see her everydae...so naturally,shldnt she spend more time with her den miie...all da more...she dosent ignore miie...i mean wen...i call her and shes with her...she dosent ask me to call later..instead she toks to miie...shell be asking her hu is it behind her +[she dosent answer]+ ...haha...no matter how much she flirts,at da end of da dae,im hers not da dat person whom she 'flirted' with...insecurities not a part of dis...used to be but not anymore....she teases miie too much...one thing ive sucessfully learnt from her is dis...always wear shorts to skool...neva 4 get dis...euu will be embarraed...she keeps pulling muahh skirt up...^paiseh^..^paiseh^ .. neva mind lars...its okayy i guess...considering wad she means to me...n wad i mean to her...ill lurbb her till muahh soul leaves muahh body...even den,ill take her memories with miie...euu will always be muahh ashen god....lurbb euu loads
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

....

2006-05-07T23:50:00.000-07:00
INFACTUATION....not....LURBB....definetly....ITS EUU.....
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

sian...

2006-05-07T23:35:00.000-07:00
geography paper...so stupid... set all da questions which we confirm duno ...definetely neva do well...woke up with a flu stuck in muahh head...so irritating...nothin tastes nice anymore...chocolate and ice-cream fantasies 4 eva...missin dem loads...finally...muah hair is settled...i duno y nuahh fringe is so straight??.....not complianing though..its a good thing...straight fringe...must spend more time studying...hangin around too much...CHOCOLATE....ICE KIMO....CHUPPIE...DAPHY...UNI...CHLOE...IKA...SASI....KRIS...LURBB YA LOADS...MISSING EUU GALS...MUAHH LIFE IS NOT COMPLETE WITHOUT EUU...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

EuU...

2006-05-06T03:32:00.000-07:00
Ill just sit and stare at euu all dae long and i promise euu muahh baby,ill neva get sick of euu...euu will neva realise how much i cried da dae i fought with euu...i neva reveal those tears 2 euu for da fear dat euu will feel...let muahh feelings live and die with miie...it will neva bother euu...i neva want it to...eur eyes CAPTIVATE miie...weneva euu look at miie,i feel as if im DRUGGED...by eur love of kaus...da moment euu set eur love on miie,da moment euu said dat euu love miie...i DECIDED!!! im eurs 4 ETERNITY....its not infactuation anymore...its pure love...it will be a month on tuesdae...holdd miie in eur arms baby...and ill hold euu in mine....i dream bout euu evry nite...do miie a favour and stop haunting miie so much...euu make miie miss euu even more...love euu muahh darling
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

HoopS...

2006-05-05T05:09:00.000-07:00
saw shermin in da morning...saw her after school at compass...in outside clothes...chow pretty...tamil paper todae...so irritating!!!...hais...wanna sleep lars....thonking....CONFUSION!!!
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

lonely hearts

2006-05-04T02:09:00.000-07:00
im lonely and confused again...im moving away...or getting closer... i dunn noe... its a totally different sumone...hate it...ive gotta admit...it drives miie nuts...dis has messed up muahh world again...hate it..
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

hehe...

2006-05-04T01:52:00.000-07:00
I sucessfully screwed up muahh d n t....it sucked....big time...muahh literature is da first ever paper dat i sat 4 and im certain ill pass...its all bout LURBB....so....OBVIOUSLY....ill pass...haha....met tina after school...at long johns....ad-ge didnt come....he looks lke vineeth...only more handsome...he is seventeen...shuanna went to orchard...i so ADORE her.. ...tamil is tmr...sux sia...irritating...dun wanna study...feel lke puking...miss daphy...neva see her very long liao...i wanna go back to ICE KIMO....it rawks...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

oops

2006-05-03T02:22:00.001-07:00
went to compass...lke im going dere everydae...finished science papre and english oral...difficult sia...nvm...scanning da pics we took just now...so slow..irritating sia....ash dosent now dat we took her pic in kfc yesterdae...she is so cute...but in da phote she looks darker...haha...chao funny...oh teah i took da biggest chuppie home...saw tina ans her frend ....took her tigger home...soft toys are addicted to me todae...dey stick lke magnet...ash rawks...
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

oops

2006-05-03T02:22:00.000-07:00

*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

Wad To Sae?

2006-05-02T02:33:00.000-07:00
she is so adorable...lke muahh teddy bear...saw shuanna at burger king...not exactly...she was all over da place...so was griselda...hate her...actuallie not lah...but i dun lke her...i mean...she keeps thinking dat i lke her or smth...so weird...anyways...ive decided wad to do alreadiie..im not confused already...answers are out...not all lars...nvm...got science tmr...must study...spend too much time outside liao...chao!!!
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

im confused!!!

2006-05-01T03:15:00.001-07:00
ive just entered...so its a bit plain...sorrie...im missing sum ppl terribly...daphne,uni,ika,chloe,kris,sasi...loads and loads...i hurt so much...yet,da pain dosent subside dat easily...
i feel lke im betraying her...i cant do anytin...cant break...cant dun break oso...i just read her block...my heart bleeds...im NOT a betrayer...i cant do anything
i fell as if im responsible...wad sholud i do...no answers onlie questions...WHYY??
*[gEt mE bAcK iNn eUr pReseNce bABiiE]*

___*OncE euR preseNce hAs sEepeD iNn*___+[PrinCess Hu oWnS a HeavEn]+

EMOTIONAL WOES TAKE CONTROL NOW PAIN HEALS MY SOUL..yeah,as if.

undenyed lurbbs

i love u

i love u

FeeLingS

luxuriies....

how long?

kinda

Everlast

....

sian...

EuU...

HoopS...

lonely hearts

hehe...

oops

oops

Wad To Sae?

im confused!!!

_OncE euR preseNce hAs sEepeD iNn_+[PrinCess Hu oWnS a HeavEn]+